Today I want to learn:
what is causing me to sneeze
how to care for the right knee I've suddenly developed
what a sprocket and what a cassette and what all the bike parts look like, so I can take care of the month-old clicking sound
whether it's worth writing to all the people I stopped contacting for minor perceived slights, or out of laziness, or fortune, over the past months and years
which plants prosper where, given the constraints of the flat
BOOMING IN THE BACKGROUND, OR AS AN ASIDE, THERE'S A VOICE: BUT I HAVE TO DO A MAJOR PROJECT, DUE TOMORROW! THIS IS ALL JUST NOISE.
more broadly, what I should do next
or if there should be a next?
what is a good thing to be doing for a while when you're in your forties?
is there anything that would seem likeable to be doing then?
do I have it as good as it will get already, and yet still complain?
how about a skincare regime, or
how to tie good knots
some words in Dutch
also the Italian and Polish courses I started last year
(because I finished flirting with German and Spanish)
maybe Chinese, Russian or Arabic, for an internatonal career
but is it all just more noise on different frequencies?
shouldn't I be focusing on:
how to block out the noise
and carry out an idea
like write a poem?
Certainly that, too, is more noise,
and it doesn't help me sort anything out,
but it will be nice to me, for just this past moment.
